9 weeks (3 days)

I'm feeling fat...

That's kind of on the forefront of my mind the last few days. I always feel this way in the first trimester. I start realizing that being a human garburator is NOT great for places like my butt and face and arms and thighs... and of course when I stay up too late all feelings are exaggerated. Grumpiness does not help you to feel beautiful. I'm ready to look pregnant. I'm sick of this constant gut that, try as I may, just will not suck in. I have been doing an ok job of convincing myself that it looks like a pregnant belly, but if I'm really honest with myself I've got to admit that it's just a little to soft and not quite round enough to pass as a "bump". These are my moans for the week... thank you for listening and I'm sorry if you got any mental pictures.

There have been many great blessings this week which make my fatness somewhat less menacing. The most exciting is by far the dr's visit we had this week... well not so much the visit itself as what we got to hear. The baby is still too small to hear the heartbeat through the doppler, but we got the next best thing. We heard it moving!!! It was so amazing. To imagine this little one is the size of a grape and it was bouncing around in there. We heard it bonk against the doppler numerous times and had it been big enough to have an audible heartbeat I doubt we could have gotten it anyways. Man this thing was wild! haha It's got to be a boy ;) haha. I had no idea they moved so much this young. It really blew my mind and after a weekend of worry it was to all of our relief that we got this great news. It made me wish that I had videotaped it for the baby's mom and dad. (when I say "we" in this chapter I guess I am referring to me and the dr)

I was a little discouraged at the end of the dr's apt. b/c it sounded like the parents weren't going to get an ultrasound around the time they were coming. My dr. wants a 12 week ultrasound done and the parents aren't coming until around 14 1/2 weeks, but to our wonderful surprise the OB (who does the u/s) is going away and the earliest he can get me in is March 8th!!! I couldn't believe my ears! That is the exact date that the parents are going to be here. :D I was speechless. Praise God! I think that this ultrasound will be just so special for the parents and I'm so excited that I get to be there for it too!

So all in all it was a good week and I've been enjoying not having to worry when I go a day without some nausea. I feel like God has been blessing us all so much with this whole thing and I look forward to what's ahead. I got a little note from the mom last week in the mail and when she said hi to baby from mom it hit me like a ton of bricks... no something better than bricks that doesn't hurt, but actually feels good... like a ton of flower pedals. :) It made me soo happy to hear her call herself mom. She is a mom already and he`s a dad. This is when it starts. They aren`t intended parents anymore they are parents. YAY!!