13 weeks (3 days)

There's not a lot new to report as far as baby goes. I had my regular prenatal and the dr. was able to get the heartbeat right away. He said the baby's heart was the size of his pinkie finger and it really astounded me that we can hear it already, so strong and clear. Sometimes I sure love technology.

I have gotten my nausea back with a vengeance. This is a new twist once again. Never have I had it last this long and once it's gone it has never come back. I guess new pregnancy, new symptoms. It's actually worse at times than it has ever been. I can no longer eat food to ward off the "oh no I've got to puke" feeling and if I do I usually end up loosing it a few minutes later. On the bright side after my stomach stops heaving I usually feel awesome haha. Suckers! That is the answer. I am too cheap to buy prego pops and so far suckers have been doing the trick. They are a little on the sweet side, but so far they have helped an otherwise unpleasant experience.

This week has been an interesting week as far as feelings go. It's really hard to explain, but I'll try. I have really been feeling the distance. As you know the baby's parents live 10 1/2 hours away. I guess lately I have been feeling like everything is very mellow. All the people who are excited for the baby to come and everyone who's lives will change from this are all not here. It's ok. It's just weird. All of my people are excited for this pregnancy, but obviously not for the same reasons. We aren't expecting a baby... the baby's parents and grandparents and friends and aunt's and uncles and cousins are expecting a baby and I think that's the biggest difference. All of my past pregnancy's I have obviously been expecting a baby. I was preparing and thinking and planning and this time I'm not. It really brings to light that this is not 'my' pregnancy. It's really ok. I just needed to work through those thoughts a bit and figure out why I have been feeling so mellow and uninvolved. I got an e-mail from the baby's mom the other day and it was just so nice to hear how they are planning and preparing for baby. I think them coming here will really help to make it feel like something is actually happening. I know this baby is loved and will be welcomed by a bazillion excited people, but it's nice to re-hear that sometimes since I'm separated from all that emotionally and physically.

ok this is getting longer than I had planned. One more thing haha.

I believe that this week I can finally say I've started showing. It almost felt like overnight. Actually at the beginning of the week I would have said no I'm not. It's small, but I think it's there. It's funny people have been saying wow your small for a third pregnancy and I was standing there thinking "you really think I have this big of a gut when I'm not pregnant?" hahaha. I guess b/c I lost my waist from what feels like the first day I am just ready to shed this bloated belly and look how I'm supposed to. So here are some pics of the small, slowly growing belly.



Please excuse the mess behind me. My kids were playing as I was taking this photo. This is at 13 weeks 3 days, first thing in the morning so that I include as little pregnancy bloating as I can.



And a closer view...